So I woke up, and now everything's changing. Tut

I'd booked about a week off work and I deserved it. I've worked really hard on a project recently and some time off was bang on. Then I was asked to do something in the middle of the week. I'd usually say no, but it's part of another project I've been part of for over a year, and we've got to the final round of a national training award. I was asked to represent Learning and Development (the department I'm in) and talk about my experience of the project and so on. Well, I wasn't going to miss that just to sit home in my scruffs, so I came in for the day. I'd still have the rest of the week off.

So, my phone rang at 9.30, which is too early if you've had a (very) late night the night before, and you'd planned to have breakfast around noon. I'm childless, so getting up at noon is still a very common occurrence for me. It was Jodie, one of the managers, asking me if I could come in to a briefing at 12, with the rest of the team. Now that's just sprung on me, still half asleep and realising that if I went in or not, my day was going to be spent in the pursuit of thinking what the briefing was about. So, grudgingly I got up and hauled my arse in. Still fuming though.

We've been speculating for a few months now, since we found out our department was being merged with another and generally changed about, what would happen to us. The managers went through it first and we lost most of them, so we've been shitting ourselves. We guessed we'd be reduced a bit in numbers, and our job would look a bit different, but I wasn't expecting this: We're loosing more than half or team. We've stuck a brave face on and we're pretty lucky really. We've got to apply for the new jobs and go through the usual assessments and so on. If we don't get it, we can either have voluntary redundancy (which is quite a good package) or we sit in a pool of people, waiting for a role that suits us to come up. Not ideal, but Christ, it's a job. The main thing is, if you want to stay with the company, and I definitely do, you can. If you want to take the money and run, you can apply. They may feel you're that shit hot at what you do, that they don't want to loose you, but you've got a good chance. So, I'm not out of a job, and that's the main thing. One way or another, I'll carry on working where I love, but who knows what I'll be doing. It's scary as fuck because I love my job. I'm not worried about change usually, but loosing some of my closest mates is going to be very hard.

I didn't plan to be writing about this today. I'd planned on not having a shower and spending the day grazing on shite out of the fridge and bumming about. Not being told my World is being changed from under me. Maybe it's a good thing? Maybe my World needs shaking up a bit.